Wednesday, March 31, 2010

don't blame it on your shadows.


My leg is now in a cast and I've been given orders to remain immobile for 2 months. The truth is, I've had a hard time so far (emotionally and physically). Even though a broken bone may not seem like that big of a deal, not being able to walk or drive is making me a little crazy. And it's only been three days.

on the dark side:

I'm borderline claustrophobic, which means I hate the cast with all my guts and have to keep myself from thinking about it or I'll practically hyperventilate.

It hurts. And I'm a wuss.

As someone who likes to get things done and is admittedly a perfectionist, I'm having a tough time being so useless and not being able to do things myself. (I break down and cry every few hours.) My poor husband has inherited a part-time job taking care of me.

There are stairs in my house. That complicates things.

I've been whining continually, but I am going to stop complaining and try to be positive. And so...


on the bright side:

Forced rest. Lots of time for reading.

You should see me scoot up and down the stairs. It's funny, and I'm getting faster. Also, my ability to balance on one leg is rapidly improving.

I'm able to work from home.

My dear husband has been unbelievably helpful. Running up and down the stairs to get me things, picking me up and carrying me, fixing meals, trying to comfort me, and much more.

People are kind and beautiful. Thank you for the concern, sweet comments, meals delivered, visits made, hugs and prayers.

And obviously, it could be much worse. In fact, I keep thinking of people who have way bigger problems, and then I start to feel pathetic for even feeling sorry for myself in the first place. It's just a broken bone and it's just for 8 weeks or so. That's nothin'.

29 comments:

  1. Ugh, I feel for you. It sounds miserable. And as someone who has been kind of wallowing in the misery today I sort of appreciate the company. If I ever get around to baking myself a cake I'll bring you half :)

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  2. Oh man. I totally get you on the claustrophobia and cast thing. Plus I'm a wuss too. Seriously.

    Sorry about not being able to drive! Look on the bright side- no awful 101 traffic every morning and night! :)

    Get well soon my dear! If you need some cheering up, just holler. I'd love to stop in and say hello sometime!

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  3. oh, and hello.. lovely photo of you!

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  4. How frustrating. I'm glad you're trying to keep a positive attitude, though.
    And 8 weeks will be gone before you know it. :)

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  5. i feel sorry about you..
    get well soon :)

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  6. Oh you sweet dear! I will come visit you anytime you need some cheering up (I will of course find a babysitter)! I can't imagine how trapped you must feel. Hang in there.

    Beautiful picture!

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  7. get better! i've been bed ridden for 2 weeks and it was just enough to make me go slightly mental, but the upside is movies + all the books you can read without the guilt!!!!!!

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  8. Oh no! I'm sorry. That would make me quazy too! Rich has Spring break next week and we are going to come up to go to the temple. Can we come and see you guys?

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  9. you.are.gorgeous.

    feeling a bit jealous.

    but mostly just happy.

    that we are friends.

    you beautiful cast girl you.

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  10. Oh man, that is a long time to not do anything...I feel for you. The same bone breaking thing happened to my friend and she too had some emotional upheaval. One time I carried around a big catheter for 2 months after I had the triplets. Didn't get out much for fear that people would think I was addicted to Mountain Dew or something and they had just invented a clear Camelback...ha! I am really writing all of this personal stuff on your blog but anyway I had to keep thinking about others with problems and it seemed to work even though my little situation still stunk.

    Hang in there for this will soon pass.

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  11. Did they really tell you not to move for two months? That's nuts. Bright side: you're guaranteed a visit from Clara at least once a week for the next month or two. You lucky duck.

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  12. I'm sorry you can't move for two months!! that sounds like a really long time! It will go by fast though- and you'll still have summer!!

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  13. Ang, I wish Roan & I were not in Utah right now so we could come visit you! I know Roan could cheer you up, he is getting so big you won't believe it. Anyways, I hope you start to feel better. I will call you when we get back this weekend. I need to bring you some Cadbury eggs :)

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  14. that's really no fun, angela. it sounds miserable. but oddly kind of nice... (staying at home... not breaking a bone, and i'm sorry you couldn't have one without the other) i'll be in town in a few weeks... i can come keep you company for a few hours!

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  15. Oh Angela! I hope you feel better soon! (emotionally too!) I'll keep you in my prayers!


    Btw, I been wondering: how you get your pictures shown so large?

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  16. your poor dear!!

    how did this happen?

    everything is about balance...way to vent about the negatives while focusing on the positives.

    get well soon.

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  17. geez. i hope you start feeling better. i'm the biggest baby known to man. i cut my wrist the other day and i acted like it was armageddon. lehi just laughs every time something happens.

    but no, this is serious. 8 weeks? oh, my... it will pass by quick, i'm sure.

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  18. HI Angie! I am so sorry about your leg. And I have felt that frustration before so go ahead and cry when you want! Just be so excited to have no muscle in that leg and the longest hair ever to shave once you get that cast off! Hope all is well besides the leg!

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  19. Hey Angela, sorry about your ankle and cast. I want to see pictures of your cast! :) Well as you know, when life gives us lemons we just have to make some lemonade. you have a great family to keep you company and to help you out, plus your husband is hilarious, so I'm sure his humor helps you get through the hard moments! So sorry though. I hope you can feel the Lord's comfort when you are feeling sad. It's humbling to be in any position in life when we can't do everything for ourselves and we are so easily reminded why we need the Lord's help and help from family and friends. Hope you have a speedy recovery and when you are all better, and the cast comes off you can look forward to a pedicure!! :)

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  20. Just get everyone to carry you around like they did when you were such a cute little baby.

    I know some people at my work who havn't moved in years. The sad thing is, they think they are moving.

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  21. Soooo for someone who blogs so many details of life, what is up with not telling us how you broke your leg!?! Is it a super secret or did I miss the explanation somewhere??

    So sorry for you, that stinks. At least you have a job you can do from home and a helpful husband!

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  22. Hope you get well soon! Keep looking on the bright side ! I love your blog.

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  23. the claustrophobia would totally get to me. but the sitting around reading sounds lovely. should i go try to break a bone??

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  24. oh yucky. that would be hard. i didn't even think about not being able to drive. maybe you'll have to tell us about the books you read. you are beautiful.

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  25. I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I know what it feels like to be in a cast. I've never broken my leg, but i've broken my left wrist 6 times and my right once. Hope your leg recovers quickly

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  26. such a bummer! I'm really sorry. hope things look up!

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  27. beautiful picture! Sounds like you figured it out and have it made!

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  28. cherryl (& others who asked):

    i broke my ankle playing kickball. ran over first base (barefoot) and my foot was half-on/ half-off and then it rolled and cracked. ouch.

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  29. did you get one of those fun colors for your cast? like neon pink?

    if i could sign it i would say "cast or skin, you're lovely. love, sheri".

    enjoy every minute of being taken care of, it will pass quickly enough.

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