Friday, March 23, 2012

little darling.





We're taking things one day at a time, trying to soak up the joy and love that comes with having a brand new spirit in our home...

My wise older sister (and fellow designer) Rachel always told me that out of everything she's ever created, her absolute best work has been her children. I finally understand just what that means. There's nothing in the world like holding your tiny babe all cuddled up on your chest, or seeing the way your husband loves her more than ever.

This is hard work, though. Right now it's a full-time job just to keep the darling fed, and to be honest I've had a few rough days. After a particularly hard day earlier this week, I took little M out in the front yard for some sunshine and sang Here Comes the Sun with tears running down my cheeks. They were tears of sadness and frustration, but also tears of love and hope and a hundred other good emotions. Because even though it's a little tough right now, I'm so ridiculously happy.

We always find ourselves staring at her in admiration, kissing her head of dark hair, watching her sleep, laughing at the faces she makes, and just generally in awe that she is ours forever.

53 comments:

  1. i love that cute little baby. i think we are over due for more visiting hours. i'm so happy for you and clint

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  2. she is so beautiful!
    i remember the first little while with my first baby. it's so interesting how you can feel such happiness, joy, contentment, and love, while at the same time feeling confusion and frustration and a little bit of sadness. adjusting to a new baby is hard work, but it is wonderful work. and it just keeps getting better. :)

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  3. welcome to the world little one. the first few days, weeks, months, are hard....very hard. i'm thankful for you thta she came just as the sun is arriving for the year. that will be such a great help. :)

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  4. I've got three babies, and I can tell you, it gets sooooo much easier after the first few weeks. Hang in there! (Insert picture of kitty hanging from clothesline....) Congratulations!

    Laurie in Georgia

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  5. She's just so beautiful! I'm sorry you've had a rough few days. I can't even comprehend what a change that must be for new mothers. You just keep on singing and crying (when needed) you'll find your groove soon enough.

    P.S. You're a gorgeous momma! seriously you look so great!

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  6. she has your pretty feet:)
    pve

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  7. Anonymous3/23/2012

    Your baby is beautiful and you look great! Know that the first few months of being a Mama were the hardest of my life but it gets so much easier. I needed to hear those words a year ago. My son is now fifteen months old. He is my everything. Enjoy each and every single day. AND you will sleep again ...don't worry.

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  8. oh goodness, what a very precious and honest post. thank you for sharing not only the good, but the bad. and even any bad seems all worth it.
    xo TJ

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  9. Congratulations! She's absolutely precious. Hang in there, I hear the good days start to outweigh the bad :)

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  10. Oh my word. I love that little baby. And that first week is so hard. I did some crying too.

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  11. Beautiful post. You look absolutely stunning in that last shot; you look totally in control and yet also so relaxed and natural, like "I GOT THIS!" Hang in there, mama. xo.

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  12. The first weeks really are the hardest and I shed MANY tears and needed my own mama more than ever but it's so worth it :) she's a doll!

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  13. She is beautiful, and it gets easier after a while! You look so natural as a mother.

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  14. She is absolutely adorable, Angela!! I love her. I remember feeling that same way- in awe that they let me take Beckam home from the hospital, :). Can't wait to meet her in person.

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  15. I know just what you mean, we all go through it, some more intensely than others, but it will get better with each passing day, and the love you feel now, will become bigger, wiser and more profound. It really is a miracle!

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  16. that shirt makes her look like a gumball machine.

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    1. Cutest gumball machine in the world.

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  17. Oh, I can so relate. My song was So Glad I'm Here by Elizabeth Mitchell. Just hearing it now still makes me remember how very hard, but very good, those first months are.

    Plus the lack of sleep is just brutal!

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  18. oh, what a beautiful thing!
    hang in there, you! getting to embrace the hard with the good and easy is the best kind of medicine! you seem right on track!

    sending lots of peace and happy thoughts out west towards you and your little margo!

    xoxo

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  19. A lovely post - one that so many can relate to. A friend's mom, after my friend had just had a baby, told her that all of the crying she was doing was just her body getting rid of excess water. I loved that. I always have weepy moments after the baby comes - just shedding my excess water. The good will soon outweigh the bad. Thanks for your honesty.

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  20. i love love love baby yawns.

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  21. Love how honest and real this post is. I soon will be feeling these things too and I am sooo looking forward to it. I am also enjoying my rest at the moment too :p

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  22. She is so adorable, congratulations!

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  23. that yawn!! i've never seen anything so adorable! hope things get a little easier for you, and those photos of both you & clint with her are perfect. love it love it.

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  24. Your little darling is so beautiful. And I remember those first few weeks so perfectly... I was so full of every kind of emotion: joy, wonder, exhaustion, frustration, confusion, sadness... Sometimes I couldn't hold back the tears and I'd sob for no particular reason, though the number one feeling in my heart was a mix of love, happiness, and gratitude.

    Half of me envies you and the other half is so grateful I survived those first three months. Enjoy!

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  25. It is hard! And don't feel any guit for the terrible thoughts and struggles we all have. It seems like you are having a good balance. Remember to take care of you! Crying wont hurt the baby at all, and the shower is more important. Love you! Do you need dinner or anything?

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  26. this is such a beautiful and honest, angela. and you have such a lovely family. hang in there. *hugs*

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  27. Angela, you're doing great, I'm sure she could not be more loved. It is rough starting out and nursing still hurts for the first few weeks. For me-with all my kids, it took a good 6 weeks before I felt like we were in a rhythm and could function more normally. Just remember this is the gloden time with your first when you can give all your attention to just her and take naps while she sleeps. Most important, remember your husband came first and he is the one you will be with forever. And it all gets better and better, just give it time! Love you so much!!!

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  28. What a little sweetie! Every mom can attest to those hard days, but they will pass and you will miss the teensy tininess as we all do! Hugs and best wishes for an extra dose of patience and some sleep too!

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  29. She is beautiful! Wow, can't wait to read more about her. Glad you are doing well. xxx

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  30. I just had my first baby six weeks ago and I couldn't relate more. It is SO hard. Much harder than I ever anticipated. Just know that it's completely normal to be sad and frustrated amid the joy. It's a very confusing time. Taking things one day at a time has become my mantra. Be kind and patient with yourself, you're transforming into a new person! A friend of mine sent me this article called To The Mother With Only One Child. It was just what I needed: http://www.ncregister.com/blog/to-the-mother-with-only-one-child/

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  31. Can completely relate to these feelings. Our boy is just 5 days. I'm in awe.

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  32. I love all these pictures!

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  33. Beautiful photos (and little Margo)! It makes me miss the baby stage! Enjoy this special time!!

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  34. I am on my 3rd and things really do get easier. Your body will get stronger every day, your ability to go without sleep gets easier, letting the house just be dirty or projects left in limbo get easier to just accept, getting out of the house will sounds good again someday, your confidence in all things (even surprising things) will grow insurmountably. You think you are awesome now because of what you just went through (because you are of course) but just wait, you will be awesomer.

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  35. These photos are amazing!

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  36. oh those first days are so sweet and so hard, not to mention the hormones! i wasn't prepared for how much crying i would do after matilda was born. it does get so much easier and it's all so exciting as you get to know this little person. the biggest congrats to you and clint!

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  37. These are beautiful pictures. Love your candid post. One day at a time... the way life should be taken. xo

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  38. a 10o congratulations! She is perfection. And I love that you share your ups AND your downs with us readers. I appreciate your honesty, and can't wait to see more of your little creation.

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  39. Too bad I'm never home b/c obviously she just needs to see me more. I'm bummed I didn't get to see her today.

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  40. Hang in there pretty mama. It really truly does get easier. These first days are so magical and blessed but also hard and painful. Sending good thoughts and support.

    Kacie

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  41. congratulations! cheers to motherhood! looks so good on you.

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  42. Those first few weeks are precious, and yet, so emotional. I remember just sobbing as I held our new baby boy and when my husband would ask why I was crying I would say, "I just love him soooooo much!" Looking back I must have looked like a basket case but that's how I felt and I was kind of scared of the vulnerability of loving someone so little, so much. When my mom came to help me she kept reassuring me that after six weeks, I would start to feel better. Sure enough, right at six weeks everything looked so much brighter and things got easier. My life didn't seem like it began and ended with nursing and I was starting to feel more like myself (and many babies start to get over some of the fussiness and settle into a routine). I hope that six weeks is the magic number for you too! Remember sunshine, exercise and affection are great cures for the baby blues (and get your Omega 3's!). Congrats, Angela. She's just lovely.

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  43. She (and you!) are gorgeous. I think back to the first 2 months of EZ's life and I remember feeling looney. So high or so low and just completely obsessed. Babies do weird things to us. I think that's why god made them so small and perfect and cute.

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  44. oh, my, what a beauty!
    congrats, angela!

    :)
    agnes
    :)

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  45. she is such a beauty! and I am very happy to have found you and your beautiful blog through instagram :)

    take your time,

    xo
    Maaike

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  46. Congratulations, she is beautiful. What the others said is true; it does get better. One thing people did not warn me about were the tears that came SO OFTEN during the first few weeks. Out of love, joy, fear, pain, anxiety, and sometimes (often) for no reason at all. Hormones seem to reign in the beginning, and in super unpredictable ways. But it gets better, oh so much better. Hang in there!

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  47. Oh my goodness, Angela! Congratulations on your perfect little darling!!! I can't even imagine how hard it must be to get through those beginning days. I had the exact same emotions with our puppy - I cried, sobbed actually, tears of frustration and sadness but knew in the back of my mind that she wouldn't be this way forever. Not to compare a puppy to a baby - but I am just saying I understand a fraction of how you are feeling. She is adorable and so are the pics of you two with her. Again - congratulations!

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  48. Anonymous3/29/2012

    She is beautiful! Congratulations. It will just get better and better.

    Erica
    tartraz

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  49. Angela, oh how I know that feeling.
    this one time I had fed Freddie and as I swaddled and held him, looking at him, he drifted to sleep. And then all the tears came. I was exhausted but here was this child. this person. my child. my son. mine forever. so innocent. so perfect. so reliant on me. how lucky we are to be mothers. we can create life!

    I'm so happy for you and Clint and Margo!!!
    Oops! gotta go! F is teething, youch!

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  50. oh my!!! So sweet and beautiful!

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  51. you are such a good mom :) I can tell you love her and that's most important

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  52. she is so so sweet. those first few weeks (months, for me. ha!) are really hard. you will make it through!

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