Monday, May 14, 2012

the more i see, i understand.



It didn't happen immediately like everyone says. It took a good three days. Three days after Margo arrived on earth before it really dawned on me that I had a baby, that I was a mother, and that a space in my heart had been filled forever.

Last year on Mother's Day, I was still aching to be a mom. This year, there was a beautiful tiny baby of my own in my arms. It's no wonder I spent the entire day so emotional. What a blessing, what a miracle, what a joy. I am completely humbled and amazed beyond measure every single day. Even on the hardest days, even after sleepless nights, there is nothing in the world so wonderful as seeing my daughter look at me with a big smile and knowing that she's my little girl.

It took three days to fall in love with my baby. It will take forever to wrap my mind around this kind of love.

Happy belated Mother's Day to all you wonderful moms (including those of you who are still hoping and waiting for your own babies to come).

43 comments:

  1. Happy mothers day to you Angela! Margo is lucky to have you x

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  2. ok, while i am not a mother (not yet, at least), i appreciate your honesty that it took you a bit of time to figure out the whole baby-love-mom-forever thing. i like knowing that if it's not there the very instant the baby is born, that that's okay. i also love her hair clip, but that's a little beside the point. ;)

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  3. Happy Mother's Day to you!! Your daughter is beyond beautiful. This is just my second Mother's day with by little boy, but I still feel the magic you're talking about. I LOVE being a Mom more than words can say. We are SO BLESSED.

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  4. Beautiful post! Beautiful blog! I'd love to know where you found those sweet hair barrettes.

    :)

    -L

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    1. i made it (well, my sister made this one). there are lots of tutorials online - here's one. or you can find a huge selection of options to buy on etsy of course.

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    2. Wonderful! Thank you!

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  5. You look so beautiful. Happy Mother's day!
    ...and Margo's hair clips are the cutest!

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  6. this is some really insightful and kick-b writing on the subject of motherhood. i'm impressed.

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  7. Happy Belated mother's day. Little Margot is so cute. Being a mommy must be so amazing. I'm certainly looking forward to what you to being a mommy one day. You have the beautiful mommy glow by the way.

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  8. Such an honest post Angela, I love it. With my first child, the events leading up to his birth felt out of control and scary. In the end, I was so roughed up, I was in shock the first few days and it took me some time to fall in love too.

    The three of you make such a beautiful family. Congratulations on your first mother's day! xo

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  9. happy mother's day, angela! you definitely deserve to celebrate! :)

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  10. I guess I'm not part of "everyone" because I told you mine was not instant.

    I'm glad you get to be a mom.

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  11. (including those of you who are still hoping and waiting for your own babies to come)
    You're the only one I've seen say something like this, and it's like getting a big hug. I'm glad you had a lovely Mother's Day with your sweet little miss.

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  12. what a happy day! i'm so so thrilled for you...and the knowledge that things are starting to settle into place for you all!

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  13. you're such a sweetheart :) I am so happy that you were able to become a mom and especially through such a darling little girl! I have no doubt you are a great mother

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  14. i agree, thank you for including those who are still hoping and waiting -- i know you were once one of us (the hopeful + waiting) and it really is like you giving us a big hug. you're a beautiful mother and margo sure is lucky!

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  15. Happy Mothers day Angela! This post was beautiful

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  16. Angela - you are such a beautiful mother, in every way! I always love to read what you have to write. :)

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  17. Thank you for your honest post. It took me five days to fall in love with my little baby boy, partly because of the emotional exhaustion I experienced during L&D and partly because of the baby blues. I realized - during those achingly confusing five days - that love isn't just a feeling; it's also a choice. Again, I appreciate your truthfulness.

    Happy first mother's day!

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  18. i love how open and honest you are with how your love took a while with your child. but i'm sure your love has grown 10 fold since that time. you and your little girl are just about the most precious things :)
    xo TJ

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  19. beautiful, happy mothers day. x

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  20. These photos are so sweet! Where did you get Margo's little flower clip?

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    1. i made this particular one, but if you search etsy for felt flowers or felt rosette headbands/clips, there are a bunch.

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  21. Anonymous5/15/2012

    Happy First Mother's Day to you. I am loving this peace that is settling into your new family. I have four children and I have to say .... you seem to have come into this motherhood thing so naturally. congratulations. It is the hardest work I do each and every day ... but also the most rewarding.

    Also --- you look just as snazzy as that baby with her clip. Where is that adorable dress from?

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    1. the dress is vintage/thrifted. (i always hate when people give me that answer, haha.)

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  22. Happy Mother's Day to you!! Lovely photos, beautiful baby, wonderful you.

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  23. Beautiful photos and lovely colors. What a wonderfully picturesque life you have! Love.

    Jane
    harleyandjane.blogspot.com

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  24. I am so happy for you! She is quite a beautiful blessing.

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  25. You look awesome, Angela!

    Oooh and I can't wait for this!

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  26. lovely post. and you look great!!

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  27. Aww, you are so adorable, and Margo melts my heart.

    xoxo,
    --Abi

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  28. she is an adorable baby girl. what a special thing to be a mother. i'm excited to be a mother someday :)

    andrea brionne @thedailyeverythings.blogspot.com

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  29. happy first mothers day! isn't it lovely to be holding your sweet girl? she really is beautiful.

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  30. i love these thoughts. they are so similar to the ones i felt with my first baby girl. and you will keep falling in love with her day after day, year after year--always thinking "oh i love this phase of her life the very best!" :)

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  31. Nothing like being a mom. Just wait, you think you love her know...you can't imagine how that love will grow she does. (love the picture of you holding her--she's gorgeous!)

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  32. So beautiful, Angela. I'm longing to be a mommy and hoping that my day comes soon enough. Your daughter is absolutely beautiful!

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  33. hello, hello! happy belated mother's day. it's always pretty emotional for me for so many reasons. can't wait to see you!

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  34. You look beautiful. Margo looks beautiful. Happy Mothers Day.

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  35. Margo is so precious! I wish I could see and hold her in real life!

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  36. Congratulations to you for such a treasure.

    And thank you for the title of your post. Indeed, the more we see, we understand. Must look more new things to see and observe.

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  37. Happy Mother's Day!The baby is so cute!!!

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